lol. i just realized it's only wednesday.. i've been wishing everyone a happy weekend..

 

i honestly thought it was friday.. oops..

 

i started to write another song last night with the word "sex" in it..

 

i must apologize with all these 'sex' songs.. not sure what's come over me.  so i recorded whatever came to mind on my ipad voice memo and it's kind of embarrassing.  but.. i know i'm gonna have to get over that because i'm gonna have to let you hear it one of these days.

 

i saw the movie "drive" today with ryan gosling and albert brooks

 

i go to movies for the same reason i read books, to learn, to experience. but at the same time i am also a stanislavski trained actress. therefore i am very much detail oriented.  i try not to let bad acting bother me but when it's really bad, it really bothers me.  so here goes my blog about "drive".  

oh, and i must say i loooooove ryan gosling.  although his latest movie with another actor i adore, steve carell "crazy stupid love" failed to wow me.  it was the script for sure, not the entire script but just near the end where steve carell gets sappy.

back to "drive", i was engrossed by the script, by ryan most of all, the entire movie, but the ending failed me.  i was sitting there thinking 'wow, this might go down as a 'great' movie people will remember for years to come, because it had originality.  but i was wrong.  ryan might have put a spell on me.  he does that so well.  but i came out of the theater with nothing.  nothing at all to hold on to.  nothing to ponder over or be upset or happy about.  except of course happy that i got to watch ryan for almost 2 hours of film. but nothing about the story gave me a deep spiritual jolt i usually crave.  but that's alright.  i'm still glad i saw it!

let me know what you think..

 

9/11 - 10 Year Anniversary Commemorative Show - I Don't Wanna Say Goodbye

 

 

happy sunday!! 'live ur life with a purpose beyond yourself & you'll find that the world is as bold

 
 

de-cluttering

 
i thought i'd start a little series on "decluttering" because i think it's a really important process we all need to partake in. everyday. thanks to brooks palmer and many other authors of the subject we can start today. it's never too late. so one day while brooks and i were on an excursion to a movie theater he tells me "i just got rid of a box of poems i wrote a long time ago." i said "what??!??????" i couldn't believe he said he got rid of an ENTIRE box of old writings of his, so i was a bit confused. i mean.. how could he get rid of a part of himself. his work, his writings, his past, his, i mean i could go on and on.. i didn't understand it. to this day i am not sure i can just throw away a bunch of my writings. but brooks did and that's exactly what he means when he talks about decluttering. clearing your (phychic) clutter. what are you holding on to that could help you become a new you.. the you that's meant to be.. if you haven't gotten rid of anything that drastic, maybe it's time..
 

clutter busting

 
i hope your 2010 is taking you to places you've never been! i know mine is :) i have so much to share.. but this subject stood out for me today.. thinking of you of course.. :) yesterday I was with my friend brooks palmer. brooks has always been very intuitive and so i wasn't surprised when he told me years ago that he's writing this spiritual way of "clutter busting" (letting go of clutter) or "letting go of what's holding you back". today his book is available everywhere if you're ready for it. its title of course is "clutter busting - letting go of what's holding you back". what IS holding you back? maybe now is the time to let go.. it's frightening i know but make this new year the year you stop limiting yourself and let go of your old perspective of who you are.. and see the you that's really meant to be.. all my love and respect.. always.. ..and an early valentines wish!
 

dream

 
charles dickens once said "A merry Christmas to everybody! A happy New Year to the world!" it's a NEW year!!! A new chapter, new questions, new answers, new dreams, new hopes, new changes, etc.. a new year!!! i thank you for all of your continued wishes.. now I dare you once again to dream.. they say "only dreams give birth to change". what are your most private aspirations? I would love to know.. but even if you don't feel like sharing here.. I want the most important person - YOU - to know it, to trust it, cultivate it, to live it. my most private (well not so private anymore), it hasn't been for quite some time now. is to be able to be there for everyone who needs me. I have always had the compassion to feel, to be there for my friends and family and I only wish I had more time to share, to listen, to truly be there. but through the years I have found a way.. I way to share, I way to listen, I way to truly be there.. and that is simply through my MUSIC. And that is what I live for.. again you've all been such a blessing to me. i'm glad you're listening and always know that I am here for you.. happy NEW year!!! dream.. TRUST it and LIVE it. Dreams DO come true.. this I know :)
 

god

 

what better time to talk about "god" than on christmas eve.. i just read this post from a friend, "blessed is the season which engages the whole world in a conspiracy of love!" by hamilton wright mabie so is god.. love? i read this comment just now too.. "tey you always put a lot of yourself out there showing how much you care, i well have the honor to welcome you into heavens gates even if there is no gates. heaven will love you just as much! merry christmas!" and this comment right after, "trust he made us cause he love us!!!" if you believe in christmas then do you believe in god? "o holy night" do you believe in this song? i've been dying to know your thoughts and feelings and beliefs and whatever you or i or we might call them.. as always.. thanks for sharing.. and love always.. merry christmas.. merry everything..

 

are men as faithful

 
.. as their options? they name tiger woods, bill clinton, brad pitt, hugh grant, kobe bryant.. are men ONLY as faithful as their options? how about women? are women only as faithful as their options as well then? i know men are women are made differently.. VERY differently but i just wanted to be fair :) talk to me cause i have heard all sides..